:: Food Charity Fair ::





Yesterday, Imperial Hotel conducts a food fair for charity in Imperial Mall. I went for the event since I have bought a coupon from my brother last week. By the way, my brother was one of the employee there under pastry department. He was promoting a.k.a showing off me some pastries cakes he made.




Each coupon booklet cost about rm15. I only bought one. ahahaha cause they are selling only cakes biscuits, so the choices are limited.



Those are the chief chef! Whoaahaa right after the taken some pictures by local reporter, one of the local reporter snap a picture of me too! with daddy.. ;) ehehehe my dad saw it this morning in the paper but sadly I haven't seen it yet! hopefully daddy manage to get me the newpaper from his work place tomorrow..


That's me! snap tease..



k, la need to offline now. Damn sleepy..
goodnight everyone..~

:: Restless neck ::





Dohhh Pain..uhuhuhu.. My neck is pain.. me tinna were painting our kitchen the whole afternoon it results my neck to ache so much due to the long straight hour painting.
Tomorrow is Sunday, I was suppose to go to bed at this moment but i was stuck infront of this lappy online.. actually i'm sleepy already but pretending to be strong awake! ahahahaaha silly. what the heck ishhh. Say leher sakit but didn't sleep. Haiyaa~

Can't wait for tomorrow morning, I'm missing the church so much..
goodnight guys...


ermmm tgh2 mlm, i suddenly ngidam nk mkn ice~creAM..ingt cheese cake ..t'ingt kat donut big apple lahh..hmmm nk bancuh hot coffee tp ermmm lazy la pulak..
arggghhh mcm2..see?how can i lose weight kalau mlm2, ayik nk ingt mkn


moral : u should sleep early. never stay up late

:: I don't know what to say. . . ::
Yesterday, daddy I have talked about my life recently.I mean my life in next few years to come, he never talk with me regarding this topic personally. it does gave me a goose bump Daddy said, I'm getting old from day to days, i should stop acting like i'm not a grown up yet. I was a bit sad tho, I realized the time is getting closer. I know what he meant by that. my hearts pound as he talks about . relationship. future HUSBAND.

Okay, to make story short. He wants me to look for a boyfriend. I mean a serious one.
Best describe as my future husband . Owhh my... dat's ridiculous where the hell I'm gonna look for one??? Daddy was so funny indeed. Last time when i was in secondary school, and few years back before, he anti all of my EXs not even one suits his choice. Owhh my, and out of a sudden as I turned 22 this year, he asked me to look for a serious man to date??? what on earth??? More over, im not interested in any guys now..it's kind of a phobia. I'm sick of guys playing fool on me.
If only a woman can live without a man. I'm sure im one of them but, marriage is a compulsory. Or else how can I see my generation grows??? Hmmmm.. Seriously, I'm tired of guy lying. They use to make u liked them at first, then when u did, they dump u. Urggghh that sucks. Dat hurts so bad. Almost all of the guy I've being in a relationship with are the SAME. Some says they are not, but as I get to know them too, I've make a speculation that young man nowadays are all the SAME. Such a player They should be ban of getting into a relationship. Ahhhahaahaa what a joke?? =.=" aisssshhhh. silly.
But seriously, i do want a friend. A bestfriend, a soulmate that i can talked with. to share my whole world with not only throughout the happiness but so do sadness together. I know it sounds more like a fairytales but I really wish that one day it might become true.. :(

this what makes daddy starts to worry *refer to picture above. He said I still act like a kid? =.=" erkkk.. Is it a crime to adore cute stuff like those pinky2 thing or act crazy like what ur doing in highschool?? I just can't pull myself apart from things i like.. Hope one day that person will accept me for who I am. As I was physically and emotionally mature, ermm i guess. Ahhahahaha. Nah, I know i do. Just dat this is me. Eventho, I didn't act my age, I know I can bear my responsibility one day...it's just the matter of trust respect.
I'm sure, we'll be living in a healthy marriage.

Owh Lord, please bring me closer to my soulmate. Amen.



Christmas wish : To meet the one whose made for me.

:: New Moon on MADNESS ::



Today's Sunday, didn't expect to watch a movie just now.. ;) wow, it was damn great
So great till i feel like to watch it all over again Ahahahaha I was sooo in luv with Edward Cullen Handsome Handsome Handsome Can't express into words how handsome he looked like in my eyes...
Did u guys know Taylor Lautner was getting HOTTER in New Moon?? With his new abs,Damnit Make me melts like chocolate~~~~
He really does..~~ out of sudden, im putting myself in team Jacob..bluwekk
Eheheheheee..




the Cullen




Damn look at those abs



the New Moon POster~~~ !!!!

We went for bowling before the movie... this is the first time me n tinna ever touched bowling ball in the real term of PLAYING a bowling game.. OWHH my..~~ what a pity
The whole time I am playing, I keep on laughing coz my ball keeps on rolling masok longkang.. aisssshhh tedah~~~


Dayen, tinna's friend was together joining us there too..
she's good at bowling! if im not mistaken she always got strike


this is me with the brothers ... looks like im the one who focus alone on the camera
Wonder what are both of them talking about???


me again....~~ posing




i was in christmas mood now..can't wait for to bring me a gift of all time longing
gagagagagagag~~




bye bye for now... muuuaaaahhhh


Betty Cullen. kidding..

:: New part time job ! :p ::



Ahahhaha not saying that i was a real part time job tho, im just kidding anyway..
i was so bored the whole afternoon so i have an idea, i end up making a part time job on my sister's face ahahhaaha the make up job naa, u know me.. i luv make-ups so much.
Since she's on a holiday now, i'm thinking of hiring her*for free :p* as a model for my photo shoot session.
Eventho it's not a professional job, i guess i went great at it
Hmmmm, lets have a look at the result,


this picture was taken at the back of my mum mini garden.. ;)
i can't believe it the pictures turned out to be great in camera








she it im glad she does... after being make-up, she looks like one of indonesian actress Naysilla Mirdad in Sekar sinetron @prima rite? eheheheheee..



THE PHOTOGRAPHER
credits for ME ... :p
eventho it's not a dlsr, dGcam can do well too..
with gud lighthing and a great photo editor, the results will look like a pro..
not much laa~ a bit will do.





heyyy,i forgotten to update on my new baby added to list..
it's another perfume miniature by Estee Lauder pure white linen blossom..
it's a from my sister last week i was sooo happy she gave me that,
at least now i have some more minis in my miniature family.

sadly i got to go to sleep early tonight coz tomorrow morning i have to wake up so early to church..n im thinking of too.. hopefully get to blog a story tomorrow since i just got the mood on to start blogging again



goodnight guys...~ ~ ~

have to say, bye bye for now... muuuaaaahhhh

:: A long abandoned blog ::




Wow! i've made a record of not updating my blog for more than 1 week! It's almost 2 weeks already haven't post anything new... I'm sure some of my readers out there were feeling weird about this coz i use to update daily before... really sorry for the inconvenience.. ;'(
was away for awhile to take some fresh air... XD ahahaha... finally, can get over everything
bad surround me... hopefully past will never come n haunt back! coz i'm tired of those pathetic moment.

Since, it's been quite a long time didn't updated with any stuff, there'll be a long queue of story to share coming the way..;) it's 23 of November today ..left almost a month for the jingle bell to come..i can't hardly stand the wait for christmas.. got plenty of plan in mind to be made..
and a long list for presents for my dearest beloved family...
i don't even have any idea what gift would suit this year..
gosh, i'm really running out of time n budget!.. =.="

yesterday the church had started decorating the hall with those nice christmas tree and flowers... like the atmosphere so much! as if xmas was tomorrow..but seriously,
i really can't stand of waiting for christmas... it's a season to be jolly!
There's no other holiday makes me beat my heart as fast as Christmas!



this coming 28 nov, my sister Tinna will be back to Miri!! yeayyy!!! got a big surprise for her!!
She won't recognise our room anymore i guess coz last few days i've started transforming our room into a nice and cosy suite look a like! hope she likes how our room turned out to be.. ;)

Anyway, lastnight got to check on my weight since it's been a long time haven't haven't weigh myself.. i was being surprised by the scale!!!
i can't believe i've gained up so high! it's 58 kg..o my God!!
i really need to excercise to burn that fat a bit! gheeee... didn't expect i've weight so much nowadays... =.="

:: Happy Birthday, Daddy ::

i bought this cake for him. I was opting for a superman on top but i ended up with
spiderman instead! ahahahaha mana2 lah, janji super hero..
Eventho the cakes looks like a kiddo birthday cake, but the point here is actually,
i just wanted to say how daddy really r a super hero to us..
i just wanted to show the appreciation we felt for him...;) thank u so much
for being the greatest daddy in the world..

daddy was 50 years old this year.. can't believe it how life have passed us by so fast!
even the grey hair are starting to grow lots on his head.. and as much as those grey hair grows,
that is as much as deeds he have done to our family..and the worries and courage he had
for struggling his life for us...


may God bless u always daddy, no matter how bad u scold me sometimes..i know it's for my own good. But do bare in mind, i never meant it when sometimes i said i hate u, cause truly is i loved u more than i could hate and for all u did, i know i won't be living a great life like i was living now without u guiding my way.. and on your special day, May your life be full of joy through out the years
and may all the greatest thing in the world that God could offer
be yours always.. ;) i love u, daddy.

:: wink^ wink (^_*)v" ::






ahahahahaaaa~ what a cute cartoon! as cute as the guy next door!
gheee~~ why i never realize bout him before.. i'm just too blind i guess? =D
i got to noticed that he is really eyeing on me every morning before we head to work!!
mama' told me so.... she realized it too! Ahahahahaaaaa.. last few days, i remembered
the smile he gave me.... no wonder he use to slow down the main road everytime i reached home after work, so that we have the resemble time as we reach home..just to look at me as i entered my house. sooo sweet.... ;")
to my surprise, he's one of the my brother football mate! LOL..
and i just know his name.... a.n.d.r.e.w. ~~~~~ i'm just melting like chocolate..
cute hunk. great body. average tall. mixed chinese to melanau. whoaaaaa..
what else can't i get rid of knowing him better?
wahaahahahhahahaha naughty betty!....
i think i just have an instant crush on my neighbour... =.="
mommy please help!!!....

:: I've PASSED, damn I'm happy! ::


Just can't explain how nervous I was this morning! I still can remember how my legs were tremble as I drove up the hill. damnit. I should done it better. Nahh, who cares?
as long as I'm passed, dats what count!
Now, I'm waiting for my P to be process~~~
huwieeeee then after I can go jalan2 my own!!!
Can't express into words how happy I am.. ;p
4.11.2009, it's a history!
Daddy suggested that i should go n buy myself a car.
Gosh, didn't expect to have one as early as this...
I was targeting to buy one by next year, but
daddy was pushing me to get it around Nov. gheee~~
it freaks me out at first! but he suggest that i should
start with a cheaper car... I guess I'll be having a viva..
yeaaaahhhh! okayyy bh itu~~~?
Mana2 laaaa janji i can go jalan2!
Can't wait to look forward to middle this month! ehehe

:: I wish u were in my shoe, I bet u'll understand why I did this. ::



So far, I tried to walk away just like that, a friend said,
"u won't be able to forget. The more u run the more u think."
I guess they r right, from the first day I undergo a "cold turkey" to myself. I still can't get over u.
How would I forget when it's u i think every single day? I've tried to delete everything I have about u. Ur songs, ur pic, ur number, ur emails and ur dreams. But yet i can't delete what I have bout u in my head. :(

It was such a surprise to receive ur email today.
But it surprised me more when u noticed so fast that I have opened up a new fb acc.
U sounds mad. I'm sorry. If u were in my place, I'm sure u'll be doing the same thing.
You dun know how I feel.. being so close and then after being abandon. In a sudden of glimpse i've got to realized I'm not the one anymore u would like to share all those
sweet songs and thoughts with..
More over u liked her, and she likes u too.
So I guess, I've made myself clear right? I just need to step back.
So why do I have to stay? There's no point of being to.

I won't blame u for this heart breaking but how I wish u would never
told me that u feel the same way before, when u never did feel the same way actually.. I dun want u to be pity or something like that towards my feeling. Cause, from the beginning till the end it comes all sincere from deep within, without needing u to reply it.

Please try not to be mad at me, cause I'm letting u go.
I won't interfere in ur life if that's the best for us. You've been such a great friend,
and a companion while I tried to cope with my life before..
I wonder how life would be without knowing u at the very first place?..
but sadly now, I really have to go..
I can't pretend when I said i'm okay last week, pretending still able to talk with u like usual when I know I hurt inside.

I wonder why does it hurts so much to love someone that much?
Well, I'll leave the rest to God above. I guess He have the reason for making our story this way..
And it's about time I have to forget about u. The more I keep contacting u the more I will be attached to u. So i've made my mind. I've choose to walk the separate way.
Cause I don't want to hurt myself anymore, enough of what I have went through before.
Hope u will help me through this by trying not to send any emails or reply my chat or some what will in future cause it will makes me missed u more.

So now I guess, I have to start it again from the bottom right?..
I'm sure this pain will heal one day.


take care.

:: Food Charity Fair ::





Yesterday, Imperial Hotel conducts a food fair for charity in Imperial Mall. I went for the event since I have bought a coupon from my brother last week. By the way, my brother was one of the employee there under pastry department. He was promoting a.k.a showing off me some pastries cakes he made.




Each coupon booklet cost about rm15. I only bought one. ahahaha cause they are selling only cakes biscuits, so the choices are limited.



Those are the chief chef! Whoaahaa right after the taken some pictures by local reporter, one of the local reporter snap a picture of me too! with daddy.. ;) ehehehe my dad saw it this morning in the paper but sadly I haven't seen it yet! hopefully daddy manage to get me the newpaper from his work place tomorrow..


That's me! snap tease..



k, la need to offline now. Damn sleepy..
goodnight everyone..~

:: Restless neck ::





Dohhh Pain..uhuhuhu.. My neck is pain.. me tinna were painting our kitchen the whole afternoon it results my neck to ache so much due to the long straight hour painting.
Tomorrow is Sunday, I was suppose to go to bed at this moment but i was stuck infront of this lappy online.. actually i'm sleepy already but pretending to be strong awake! ahahahaaha silly. what the heck ishhh. Say leher sakit but didn't sleep. Haiyaa~

Can't wait for tomorrow morning, I'm missing the church so much..
goodnight guys...


ermmm tgh2 mlm, i suddenly ngidam nk mkn ice~creAM..ingt cheese cake ..t'ingt kat donut big apple lahh..hmmm nk bancuh hot coffee tp ermmm lazy la pulak..
arggghhh mcm2..see?how can i lose weight kalau mlm2, ayik nk ingt mkn


moral : u should sleep early. never stay up late

:: I don't know what to say. . . ::
Yesterday, daddy I have talked about my life recently.I mean my life in next few years to come, he never talk with me regarding this topic personally. it does gave me a goose bump Daddy said, I'm getting old from day to days, i should stop acting like i'm not a grown up yet. I was a bit sad tho, I realized the time is getting closer. I know what he meant by that. my hearts pound as he talks about . relationship. future HUSBAND.

Okay, to make story short. He wants me to look for a boyfriend. I mean a serious one.
Best describe as my future husband . Owhh my... dat's ridiculous where the hell I'm gonna look for one??? Daddy was so funny indeed. Last time when i was in secondary school, and few years back before, he anti all of my EXs not even one suits his choice. Owhh my, and out of a sudden as I turned 22 this year, he asked me to look for a serious man to date??? what on earth??? More over, im not interested in any guys now..it's kind of a phobia. I'm sick of guys playing fool on me.
If only a woman can live without a man. I'm sure im one of them but, marriage is a compulsory. Or else how can I see my generation grows??? Hmmmm.. Seriously, I'm tired of guy lying. They use to make u liked them at first, then when u did, they dump u. Urggghh that sucks. Dat hurts so bad. Almost all of the guy I've being in a relationship with are the SAME. Some says they are not, but as I get to know them too, I've make a speculation that young man nowadays are all the SAME. Such a player They should be ban of getting into a relationship. Ahhhahaahaa what a joke?? =.=" aisssshhhh. silly.
But seriously, i do want a friend. A bestfriend, a soulmate that i can talked with. to share my whole world with not only throughout the happiness but so do sadness together. I know it sounds more like a fairytales but I really wish that one day it might become true.. :(

this what makes daddy starts to worry *refer to picture above. He said I still act like a kid? =.=" erkkk.. Is it a crime to adore cute stuff like those pinky2 thing or act crazy like what ur doing in highschool?? I just can't pull myself apart from things i like.. Hope one day that person will accept me for who I am. As I was physically and emotionally mature, ermm i guess. Ahhahahaha. Nah, I know i do. Just dat this is me. Eventho, I didn't act my age, I know I can bear my responsibility one day...it's just the matter of trust respect.
I'm sure, we'll be living in a healthy marriage.

Owh Lord, please bring me closer to my soulmate. Amen.



Christmas wish : To meet the one whose made for me.

:: New Moon on MADNESS ::



Today's Sunday, didn't expect to watch a movie just now.. ;) wow, it was damn great
So great till i feel like to watch it all over again Ahahahaha I was sooo in luv with Edward Cullen Handsome Handsome Handsome Can't express into words how handsome he looked like in my eyes...
Did u guys know Taylor Lautner was getting HOTTER in New Moon?? With his new abs,Damnit Make me melts like chocolate~~~~
He really does..~~ out of sudden, im putting myself in team Jacob..bluwekk
Eheheheheee..




the Cullen




Damn look at those abs



the New Moon POster~~~ !!!!

We went for bowling before the movie... this is the first time me n tinna ever touched bowling ball in the real term of PLAYING a bowling game.. OWHH my..~~ what a pity
The whole time I am playing, I keep on laughing coz my ball keeps on rolling masok longkang.. aisssshhh tedah~~~


Dayen, tinna's friend was together joining us there too..
she's good at bowling! if im not mistaken she always got strike


this is me with the brothers ... looks like im the one who focus alone on the camera
Wonder what are both of them talking about???


me again....~~ posing




i was in christmas mood now..can't wait for to bring me a gift of all time longing
gagagagagagag~~




bye bye for now... muuuaaaahhhh


Betty Cullen. kidding..

:: New part time job ! :p ::



Ahahhaha not saying that i was a real part time job tho, im just kidding anyway..
i was so bored the whole afternoon so i have an idea, i end up making a part time job on my sister's face ahahhaaha the make up job naa, u know me.. i luv make-ups so much.
Since she's on a holiday now, i'm thinking of hiring her*for free :p* as a model for my photo shoot session.
Eventho it's not a professional job, i guess i went great at it
Hmmmm, lets have a look at the result,


this picture was taken at the back of my mum mini garden.. ;)
i can't believe it the pictures turned out to be great in camera








she it im glad she does... after being make-up, she looks like one of indonesian actress Naysilla Mirdad in Sekar sinetron @prima rite? eheheheheee..



THE PHOTOGRAPHER
credits for ME ... :p
eventho it's not a dlsr, dGcam can do well too..
with gud lighthing and a great photo editor, the results will look like a pro..
not much laa~ a bit will do.





heyyy,i forgotten to update on my new baby added to list..
it's another perfume miniature by Estee Lauder pure white linen blossom..
it's a from my sister last week i was sooo happy she gave me that,
at least now i have some more minis in my miniature family.

sadly i got to go to sleep early tonight coz tomorrow morning i have to wake up so early to church..n im thinking of too.. hopefully get to blog a story tomorrow since i just got the mood on to start blogging again



goodnight guys...~ ~ ~

have to say, bye bye for now... muuuaaaahhhh

:: A long abandoned blog ::




Wow! i've made a record of not updating my blog for more than 1 week! It's almost 2 weeks already haven't post anything new... I'm sure some of my readers out there were feeling weird about this coz i use to update daily before... really sorry for the inconvenience.. ;'(
was away for awhile to take some fresh air... XD ahahaha... finally, can get over everything
bad surround me... hopefully past will never come n haunt back! coz i'm tired of those pathetic moment.

Since, it's been quite a long time didn't updated with any stuff, there'll be a long queue of story to share coming the way..;) it's 23 of November today ..left almost a month for the jingle bell to come..i can't hardly stand the wait for christmas.. got plenty of plan in mind to be made..
and a long list for presents for my dearest beloved family...
i don't even have any idea what gift would suit this year..
gosh, i'm really running out of time n budget!.. =.="

yesterday the church had started decorating the hall with those nice christmas tree and flowers... like the atmosphere so much! as if xmas was tomorrow..but seriously,
i really can't stand of waiting for christmas... it's a season to be jolly!
There's no other holiday makes me beat my heart as fast as Christmas!



this coming 28 nov, my sister Tinna will be back to Miri!! yeayyy!!! got a big surprise for her!!
She won't recognise our room anymore i guess coz last few days i've started transforming our room into a nice and cosy suite look a like! hope she likes how our room turned out to be.. ;)

Anyway, lastnight got to check on my weight since it's been a long time haven't haven't weigh myself.. i was being surprised by the scale!!!
i can't believe i've gained up so high! it's 58 kg..o my God!!
i really need to excercise to burn that fat a bit! gheeee... didn't expect i've weight so much nowadays... =.="

:: Happy Birthday, Daddy ::

i bought this cake for him. I was opting for a superman on top but i ended up with
spiderman instead! ahahahaha mana2 lah, janji super hero..
Eventho the cakes looks like a kiddo birthday cake, but the point here is actually,
i just wanted to say how daddy really r a super hero to us..
i just wanted to show the appreciation we felt for him...;) thank u so much
for being the greatest daddy in the world..

daddy was 50 years old this year.. can't believe it how life have passed us by so fast!
even the grey hair are starting to grow lots on his head.. and as much as those grey hair grows,
that is as much as deeds he have done to our family..and the worries and courage he had
for struggling his life for us...


may God bless u always daddy, no matter how bad u scold me sometimes..i know it's for my own good. But do bare in mind, i never meant it when sometimes i said i hate u, cause truly is i loved u more than i could hate and for all u did, i know i won't be living a great life like i was living now without u guiding my way.. and on your special day, May your life be full of joy through out the years
and may all the greatest thing in the world that God could offer
be yours always.. ;) i love u, daddy.

:: wink^ wink (^_*)v" ::






ahahahahaaaa~ what a cute cartoon! as cute as the guy next door!
gheee~~ why i never realize bout him before.. i'm just too blind i guess? =D
i got to noticed that he is really eyeing on me every morning before we head to work!!
mama' told me so.... she realized it too! Ahahahahaaaaa.. last few days, i remembered
the smile he gave me.... no wonder he use to slow down the main road everytime i reached home after work, so that we have the resemble time as we reach home..just to look at me as i entered my house. sooo sweet.... ;")
to my surprise, he's one of the my brother football mate! LOL..
and i just know his name.... a.n.d.r.e.w. ~~~~~ i'm just melting like chocolate..
cute hunk. great body. average tall. mixed chinese to melanau. whoaaaaa..
what else can't i get rid of knowing him better?
wahaahahahhahahaha naughty betty!....
i think i just have an instant crush on my neighbour... =.="
mommy please help!!!....

:: I've PASSED, damn I'm happy! ::


Just can't explain how nervous I was this morning! I still can remember how my legs were tremble as I drove up the hill. damnit. I should done it better. Nahh, who cares?
as long as I'm passed, dats what count!
Now, I'm waiting for my P to be process~~~
huwieeeee then after I can go jalan2 my own!!!
Can't express into words how happy I am.. ;p
4.11.2009, it's a history!
Daddy suggested that i should go n buy myself a car.
Gosh, didn't expect to have one as early as this...
I was targeting to buy one by next year, but
daddy was pushing me to get it around Nov. gheee~~
it freaks me out at first! but he suggest that i should
start with a cheaper car... I guess I'll be having a viva..
yeaaaahhhh! okayyy bh itu~~~?
Mana2 laaaa janji i can go jalan2!
Can't wait to look forward to middle this month! ehehe

:: I wish u were in my shoe, I bet u'll understand why I did this. ::



So far, I tried to walk away just like that, a friend said,
"u won't be able to forget. The more u run the more u think."
I guess they r right, from the first day I undergo a "cold turkey" to myself. I still can't get over u.
How would I forget when it's u i think every single day? I've tried to delete everything I have about u. Ur songs, ur pic, ur number, ur emails and ur dreams. But yet i can't delete what I have bout u in my head. :(

It was such a surprise to receive ur email today.
But it surprised me more when u noticed so fast that I have opened up a new fb acc.
U sounds mad. I'm sorry. If u were in my place, I'm sure u'll be doing the same thing.
You dun know how I feel.. being so close and then after being abandon. In a sudden of glimpse i've got to realized I'm not the one anymore u would like to share all those
sweet songs and thoughts with..
More over u liked her, and she likes u too.
So I guess, I've made myself clear right? I just need to step back.
So why do I have to stay? There's no point of being to.

I won't blame u for this heart breaking but how I wish u would never
told me that u feel the same way before, when u never did feel the same way actually.. I dun want u to be pity or something like that towards my feeling. Cause, from the beginning till the end it comes all sincere from deep within, without needing u to reply it.

Please try not to be mad at me, cause I'm letting u go.
I won't interfere in ur life if that's the best for us. You've been such a great friend,
and a companion while I tried to cope with my life before..
I wonder how life would be without knowing u at the very first place?..
but sadly now, I really have to go..
I can't pretend when I said i'm okay last week, pretending still able to talk with u like usual when I know I hurt inside.

I wonder why does it hurts so much to love someone that much?
Well, I'll leave the rest to God above. I guess He have the reason for making our story this way..
And it's about time I have to forget about u. The more I keep contacting u the more I will be attached to u. So i've made my mind. I've choose to walk the separate way.
Cause I don't want to hurt myself anymore, enough of what I have went through before.
Hope u will help me through this by trying not to send any emails or reply my chat or some what will in future cause it will makes me missed u more.

So now I guess, I have to start it again from the bottom right?..
I'm sure this pain will heal one day.


take care.

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